Thursday, February 9, 2012

M.S. has taken much

          That's true enough and we may lose it faster than most, or it tries to kill our spirit one ability at a time. For many folks time and living life bring changes of ability and capability, slowly at first barely noticeable really but picking up speed as the years go by. For some it's an accident that changes everything in one small moment in time. Does it mean any of the folks above should stop living each day as we did before? Doing all we can by making do with what we've got to work with? Getting caught up in regret is easy with all of our, could should and would haves from the past remind us of what we didn't do, instead of what we did do and why! Thinking of all the mistakes we had made. Now if you have read any of my posts before this one you may already know what coming next. Those mistakes were made the person you were back then, not by the person are today. You’re not that person anymore it's the reason why you're now able see it as a mistake! Okay maybe I'm wrong, I am wrong a lot and have been told that more times then I care to count. Getting caught up in the past, takes us away from living in the here and now, but we can regret that later! What the future holds is still unknown. If you want to look back go back 20 or 40 years, if you’re like me you were alive back then, the tools that we have today weren't even science-fiction back then. If history as taught us anything, it's any one thing can change the world we will be living in. 
M.S. has taken away many of the things, I loved doing like fishing, long slow walks in the woods, sleeping more than 4 hours at a time and going shopping all day, to name a few. So now I've found new and different things I love doing as much if not more like looking out my window to the world, still being able to hear the birds and squirrels, over the entire city noisy. Without having m.s. I never would have learning that woodpeckers that eat at the bird feeder will take seeds and put them in the bark of a tree and come back later to eat them. The walks in the woods are shorter so I listen closer it's all still there, now I may not see them all I do remember what the bird and animals looks like, so I can match the sound with the picture in my mind. Realizing when putting all the sounds the birds and animals are making. It's a wonderful song written by nature. The best part is it's never the same making each time it's heard the first, so for me it never gets old.
           Watching as my mother and her sisters were growing older, seeing time taking their ability and capability away with the years. What I remember the most is the grace, in which they took each lost they faced, there was a bit of moaning and groaning more or less the same as we do now. None seemed to regret or lament about the past. Even as the end was so near, each one talked of what fun they had over the years the things they had done but not what they hadn't done.

10 comments:

Living with MS? Me too...Let's talk. said...

Sure enjoyed reaading your post. Great insight...

Travelogue for the Universe said...

Great images! mary

Peace Be With You said...

Grace - I hope to achieve that.
Judy

Karen said...

Well said Mary!

Not looking back is almost impossible, but what we look at is within our control. I choose to look at the good, the happy and the beautiful. I choose to look at these things in the present as well, and look forward to them being in my future.

Nancy said...

I have been thinking lately just what your post was all about. I think we appreciate life and moments so much more. I bet that's what our Mom's did too. Have a nice weekend.

Mary K. Mennenga said...

Living with m.s.
and
Travelogue for the
Thank you both for your kindness and glad you enjoyed it.

Peace be with you, I too hope to achieve grace.

Karen, You are wise! Thank you.

Nancy, Yes she did, thank you,

Have Myelin? said...

I don't talk about MS on my blog but I need to. It's still present in my life.

I kind of don't pay attention to it right now. It comes out in different ways. I'll get to it in a post rather than hijack your post in a comment box LOL.

Great post. Really...

Mary K. Mennenga said...

No worries, feel free to hijack my comment box any time. I look forward to reading your blog. Thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed this post. Have a wonderful week:)mkm

Pee Lister said...

Great post. I kinda like how getting older makes the MS fade into the background a little bit.

Mary K. Mennenga said...

Pee Lister, With all the living I've done, over the last 49 years sometimes I'm surprised, I'm still alive at all!LOL