I would prefer to be told to shut up!

THIS IS JUST A RANT

How often do people actively listen? To what is being said, does it depend on who is speaking or how they are saying it. This is to the people who say nothing and let this person ramble on and on until they are so far off the point they have forgotten that they wanted you to hear. When engaged in conversation with someone and they said something you didn't want to hear, did you tell them how you felt about the statement made or did you tune out and stop listening and talking, letting them keep rambling on and on.

I'm one of those who rambling on and on, it's not because I like to hear my own voice. It's madding when I realize it wasn't that the person didn't understand what I was trying to say. They just ended the conversation without informing me. It would be easier on me if the person had gone ahead and told me to shut up because they didn't care what I had to say.

Of course, I begin to realize to keep it short, answering the question or statement. I will not again sound like a fool! Most people don't like sounding or looking foolish that includes me.

The part that sickens me. Is when the person asks me, why aren't you talking to me? Sorry but I could answer but I don't for if I did then I would just sound foolish all over again! been there done that.

The mirror

Is a funny thing when we look at the reflection. We see every flaw the pain, stress and fatigue. So why is it that so few people can see it when we know it's written all over our face? Because that's not face we let many people see. Instead we smile and put on that brave face, you know it's the one  you learned to use right after, seeing that first look of pity directed at you! Think back to the reflection you saw in the mirror what was your first thought? For me most of the time it's " I look horrible or like shit, death warmed over twice! My personal favorite is, like something the cat tried to drag in but ended up leaving  out on the door step! This is a few from  a long list I've said to myself. As I turn away from the mirror  leaving that reflection behind me and putting on the face I wish I could see in the mirror. No it's not a fake face, I'm putting my best face forward so conversations aren't about how I look. When I'm asked how I'm doing I just say I'm fine that way no one needs to worry about me, it's not a lie I'm just limiting the amount of information that could be used against me. Thankfully none of my family and only a few friends read my blog anyway. That way I can enjoy the conversations, visit and have some fun. Without being told what I can or should and can't or shouldn't do.