I just didn't realize I would live to be this old!

Now I'm forty nine and just when did that happen? Oh yes, it was last Sunday, I guess I'm really not all that old!

Having lived this long and having no real regrets, knowing I'm not the same person I used to be. Realizing I've done the best I could, the choices I made were the best options for me at the time I made them. Second guessing the choices I made and the things I did isn't of value. Admitting there is nothing I can do now that could change the past and having no plan to try rewriting my history. It seems life is about learning as you live it, growing into the person you think you should be takes time and it's painful at times. Believing that everything will work out the way it's supposed to in the end.

Looking back helps me see how far I've come and how far I still need to go, to be the person I want to be. Some life lessons take longer to learn, it's a good thing I have a lifetime to learn.

#17 Reflections To the few who feel the help given wasn't much help

This is for the few who feel the help they've given

Wasn't much help at all

By Mary K. Mennenga

Thinking you didn't do enough or feeling you failed

To help a friend is something many have felt before

Each person reacts differently to feeling this way

Many will accept they did the best the could

A few will feel they should or could have done more

Dismissing all they had done that had helped

It is to the few that I would like them to understand

Your choice to take action was from your heart

It did more good than you may  know

You took the time to show you cared 

What a difference that's made for me

To see your light of hope shine through

The darkness I'd gotten stuck within

Because of your actions I've renewed my hope again

With hope comes faith and you've shown love

That means a great deal to me