It's just a high pitched ringing in my right ear.

Yep it's not a big deal when it lasts for just a few hours, when goes on for days oh man it gets on my nerves. Wanting it to lower it's pitch just a bit. There seems nothing I do matters not even a bit. No longer am I counting the days or the hours,

now it's been going on for over 5 weeks. Enough is enough this has been going on far to long, I need answers and I need them now! Tinnitus is the name it's called by my Doctor, After checking the options I got from my Doctor, not one dam thing can be done about it! As I'm sure you all know it's just one more little thing that needs to be worked around. Making the adjustments needed will of course take time, in this I am not alone.  Everyone has things they must work around, it's just one more thing we all share. To work through all the crap M.S. puts in the way of living life the way we see fit. I haven't found any willing to quit or give up, the battle we fight is won from the inside by the heart and soul.  

# 23 Reflection It's up to you

It's up to you

By Mary K. Mennenga

The only person responsible for your life is you
Unhappy with your life 
You have the power to change it 
Blaming the way your life is
On something or someone will get you no where
When you risk nothing you'll gain nothing
Putting limits on yourself out of fear of the unknown
Only holds you back
Just because you've never done something before
 Doesn't mean you can't
Don't let your limitations stop you from learning
What your abilities and capabilities are
Growth is uncomfortable and unfamiliar
Stretch your mind
Being safe is not the same as playing it safe
Instead of asking why say why not!
Be willing at least to give it a go
Remember you don't know what you don't know

#22 Reflections The bond between friends

The bond between friends

By Mary K. Mennenga

It's a special bond

It stands up to the test of time

No matter the changes that living life brings

Or the distance between visits

For some unknown reason it remains strong

No matter why we were parted or for how long

The bond of friendship is still there

Not worrying or waiting it's just there

When wanted or needed each may send up a prayer

Asking God to watch over them

We may not speak often or maybe not at all

That doesn't matter

You see it's a matter of history we both shared

It's a bond that's life long 

#21 Reflection Did you know?

Did you know?

By Mary K. Mennenga

Some of the best friends I've had have been animals

People may say that's sad but it's true

This is why

Their unable to hide what their true feelings are

They can't talk so they can't lie

If people would speak the truth

No one would have any reason to second-guess them

When their actions don't backup the words they have spoken



#20 Reflections How things workout

How things workout

By Mary K. Mennenga

Being disappointed in the way things work out

Is understandable but wanting the world to stop and let me off!

Yes it sounds good but if it did bummer!

It is what it is and nothing I do now will change it

All I can do is to be honest about how I feel

What happens next has never been within my control

History is funny that way I only get one shot at getting it right

The only things I have any control of are...

...My reactions to what comes my way

...How I handle life's ups and downs

...The way I treat people

..The way I allow people to treat me

...The words I say and how I say them

...The choices I make

Things not within my control

Everything and anyone!

Now I think I'm Back for good, hopefully anyway!

It's been a bit of a rush first my hard drive crashed, wasn't able to save my software, so finds my way wasn't working out well at all. After a day of figuring it out here I am doing better than before and thankfully I kept my files stored on flash drives and not on the computer and my pictures on line and on CDs.

What I've missed is reading all the different kinds of blogs and checking on the news all over the world to get a wider view. Much of what I've missed I'll now start to read, I haven't been idle, the garden is in and growing soon the flowers we planted will bloom, the lawn is growing like a weed truth is most of it is but hey at least it's all green. Soon I'll be posting and reading more, I've missed the M.S. blogger it's where I go for answers a laugh and so much more. Here's a tidbit I got from my Dad "It's okay to drink and drive, just don't drive like you've been drinking that all!"

Yes it's been two weeks

I'm back kind of have to get everything back up and running.